Anxiety

Sometimes I can't believe it
How fast this heart is beating
Inside of me
Sometimes when I breathe
My chest tightens
I feel weak and get frightened
In this rough
There's no diamonds I can see
I'm living with anxiety

There are moments where
I'm feeling closer to the edge
My heart is racing
All I ever think about is this
I'm trying my best
Under all this stress
Not to convince
Myself to make mistakes
Cause things will
Get worse if I did
I tend to hold on
To the things that
Put me to the test
As if I put a leash on them
They'll follow me till death
Don't want to carry
All this weight
I Feel it in my chest
God help me stop the rain
Before the flood
Comes drifting in

I think I'm drowning
I think I'm starting to sink
Down
But the more I think about it
Now
The more I realize that this
Is just what it feels like
When you're learning to swim

It makes me feel like
I'm most alive when
Heart rate rises
Anxiety climbs in
No I don't like it
Not saying I do
But I found that if I fight it
I start sliding into
A point of no return
I have learned to
Calm the nerves
Sweaty palms said he's gone
But I'm not concerned
Cause the heart of a bird
Only flutters when it flies
That's exactly why
I feel most alive
When the heart rate rises
I use it as guidance
Cause I'm the only pilot
Of this ride in my mind
And the man that I am
Will never be defined
As a pawn
A slave
My soul they won't take
It's anxiety that keeps me
On my toes
And wide awake
I've tried so many times
But I just cannot escape
And I'm tired from constantly
Trying to run away
So I faced It
Embracing the race
With the dark days
I'm afraid
I'd be lying if I said I wasn't
It's fear of death and dying
That makes all of this so lovely
The yin and the yang
Within is called ballance
Anxiousness
It's been a personal
Challenge of mine

I think I'm drowning
I think I'm starting to sink
Down
But the more I think about it
Now
The more I realize that this
Is just what it feels like
When you're learning to swim

I'm losing sleep
Or is this a lucid dream
I lay confused in these sheets
Convincing myself
I'm not in too deep
I rise to my own two feet
Standing on the edge of defeat
Anxiety I did not choose you
So I hope there's a good reason
For you to choose me

I think I'm falling
I think I've run out of climb
But as I plummet
I hear something say
You need to know what
Falling feels like
To know how to fly

I'm living with anxiety
Afraid of everything I want
And yet I try to be
Better than the lies beneath
Treading in the waters
Of my doubts
When the tides will breathe
Am I living in a dream

I'm living with anxiety
Afraid of everything I want
And yet I try to be
Better than the lies beneath
Treading in the waters
Of my doubts
When the tides will breathe
Am I living in a dream