Note to Self

Don't think I was given this life to waste it
I gotta make the most of the time that I spend with family
I gotta make the most of my timing in stead of gaming
I'm writing these songs with hatred and envy, I'm feeling Empty!
I'm 24 and Unemployed, kinda bitter-sore
I can't even afford myself and my girlfriend asking for manicure
I tried to tell her being broke isn't a joke
But she left the following day, left a note on-top of the furniture
Coz being broke isn't an option for a man.
And never trust the people that say I'm your biggest fan
And Never trust the people that follow you on the gram
I only trust in God coz he made me the way I am
I pray that I never drop and stay winning until the end
I pray to God that I never Give you less than a 10
I pray to God that anyone listening becomes a fan
Coz and I give you my heart and soul
And that's all that you need to hear

It's a Note to Self
Hey, look
It wasn't meant to make you dance
I swear to God, this is a Note to Self
Hey, Huh!
But if you feel it clap your hands
I swear to God, this is a Note to Self
Heeey, Look
It wasn't meant to make you dance
It's a Note to Self
Stay True to Self
Stay True to Self

Look
I come from the Dirty South and that's the Shiselweni Region
I've Never seen the King, I've Never seen the Queen Regent
I've Never Been to Movie Zone, Never been to Prom
I've Never had a 21st, Never Been outside my zone!
I've never been the one to see a trend and follow
And every Outfit that you've ever seen me wear on stage I borrowed
Son of a slave
And I've been grinding for Almost E-very day
And My mom is school teacher for 30 something in years
She gave her heart and soul to providing for all her kids
And I am just a product of Everything that she is
And if you watching this
If this year I win the awards
I fantasize about the day that I line them against the wall
Coz all Heroes don't wear capes
Not every Hero gets a standing Ovation
Whenever they walk off stage, and that's the truth!
Maybe I wasn't good enough to start
but still I rise and I'm giving you this Maya Angelo Vibe.

It's a Note to Self
Hey, look
It wasn't meant to make you dance
I swear to God, this is a Note to Self
Hey, Hey
But if you feel it clap your hands
I swear to God, this is a Note to Self
Wooo, Look
It wasn't meant to make you dance
It's a Note to self
Stay True to Self
Stay True to Self

I remember when Momma was just one the verge of collapse
Barely food on the table and she was drowning debt
I was only fourteen at the time, didn't have a clue how to help
And plus I didn't like to see her go through all of that crap
Thirty years as as a primary school teacher, a mother to four
And a blessing to the rest of the community
She gave alot and she didn't expected reward
I hope your hard work is shown in your retirement fund, But
Never mind I hope you buy something nice
And when I get paid, I swear that I will buy you a car
That new Toyota Corola you always talking about
The one with the power steering and leather interior right?
Look, You were practically a single mom
Daddy was never around
Still kept it closer to the ground!
And when I have kids, I pray that you still around
To see them turn into angels like Esethu is now
.Now?
Well, young black and a Bless-ed
Son of a government slave
And I'm tearing it all down!
Hey Momma look at how we started from the bottom
To claiming the Spotlight, and I know that you so proud

It's a Note to Self
It wasn't meant to make you dance
I swear to God, this is a Note to Self
But if you feel it clap your hands
I swear to God, this is a Note to Self
It wasn't meant to make you dance
It's a Note to self
Stay True to Self
Stay True to Self
Stay True to Self

I've written a lot of songs, but never one like this
It's a Note to Self, Its a Note to Self
Ripping apart pages, throwing them in the trash
It's a Note to self
Stay True to Self