Heads Turn

Hi mom, missed ya
Do you hear them?
Yeah, me too

A basic ass beat, a basic ass song
Do I really wanna keep this on?
I do everything repetitively
Impulsively, this doesn't feel so wrong

A regular store, here for the grocery
Their eyes are all closed, are they looking at me?
I don't care if they're glued shut
Am I dressed like a slut?

Is it okay to say hey
To the person they see?
Is it cool to yell out
When I'm walking down the street?
Is this backhanded or am I really that bitch?
Am I slacking? Am I slacking?
Should I be pissed?
Not even famous, but I feel the pressure
Not even looking, but I feel the heads turn
I feel the heads turn
I feel the pressure

I had to be
The strongest one in my family
And by family
I mean the little tribe
Of versions of me
That don't see eye to eye
I had to see
My favorite parts of my family
And by favorite parts
I mean the ones I've started with
Now all they are
Are reasons for heads to turn

Hi dad
Sometimes I wonder what you're up to
Other times, other times...
Other times...
I don't really give a fuck, if I'm being honest with you

Have you seen me before?
What do you see?
Do you witness happy or insecurity?
Do you see why I smile
Or do you see that I'm smiling?
Or do you see what I was doing before I was smiling?
Only see skeletons, I just see ghosts
I see the silly messages lighting up my phone
I heard they see colors
I only see gray
I don't make eye contact
I check if you're looking at me

I don't wanna say hey
To the person they see
I say off with her head
I'm walking with my own feet
I need to shut up
And stop worrying what they think
I need to stop having those thoughts
At the bathroom sink
I'm famous to myself, I'll feel better
While I'm at it might as well make some heads turn
Might as well make some heads turn

I had to be
The strongest one in my family
And by family
I mean the little tribe
Of versions of me
That don't see eye to eye
I had to see
My favorite parts of my family
And by favorite parts
I mean the ones I've started with
Now all they are
Are reasons for heads to turn

They're all reasons for heads to turn
Reasons for heads to turn, oh
Reasons for heads to turn, oh
Reasons for heads to turn, oh
Reasons for heads to turn, heads to turn, oh