Lost in Therapy

Wallow in pity and self destruction
Won't know 'til it gets me
I wake up in hopes I'm not feelin' nothin' (I'm not feelin' nothin')

Lay on my chest 'til it's surely sunk in
Probably push that back
'Cause most days it's better than just feelin' somethin'
(It's better than just feelin' somethin')

Smile when I'm outside and seein' strangers
My valleys peak high and low
But what I'm caught in is mostly nameless

Pride's the controller when I'm in danger
I'm liable to trip when I lose all my grip on what I've been made of
Like, will these truths really make me famous?

When you saw the real in me
Held on when I was bleedin' from the weight of my life
I don't know what's meant for me
I'm lost in therapy, searchin' through moments that lead me to cry
We left our destiny on what'll be will be
It's only words but 'least you fuckin' tried
To stay by my side

I can still regret decisions
I should take back what I'm missin'
I don't see the love around me
All I need's an intervention
Pressure 'cause I made the call to leave me on my own
Now I'm lost inside the phone, like, where the fuck did I go wrong?

I'm frightened I won't ever make it out from secrets I keep hidden
Talkin' to you made me feel like there was someone 'round who listened
Shield me from myself 'cause now I know that I'm my only enemy
This legacy is drownin' out in endless seas
Of doubt, of pain, of who to blame for losin' faith in my last name
And family has lost its place inside my heart, I hope it changes

I got a lot leavin' me anxious (anxious)
Keep knee-deep from the damage
No beauty left in sadness
If I die, 'least I know that I tried
And if I cry, shows that I'm still alive
You stayed 'round for the truth
Holdin' you there with me too

When you saw the real in me
Held on when I was bleedin' from the weight of my life
I don't know what's meant for me
I'm lost in therapy searchin' through moments that lead me to cry
We left our destiny on what'll be will be
It's only words but 'least you fuckin' tried
To stay by my side

When you saw the real in me
Held on when I was bleedin' from the weight of my life
I don't know what's meant for me
I'm lost in therapy searchin' through moments that lead me to cry
We left our destiny on what'll be will be
It's only words but 'least you fuckin' tried
To stay by my side



Credits
Writer(s): Sean Walsh, Marcin Tomasz Ciszczon, Christian Martin Bubenzer
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