I Forgot

This shit make me wanna smoke my stress away nigga
No cap
Fuck it nigga uh, we just gon try to get through it... Look

Making no money, to make it all worse
I got me a bill I ain't paid since the first
Imma swallow my pride and ill clock into work
Right now I'll sell crack just to make it all work
Right now I'll take 'cets just to find all the perks
Of me having a conscience while business is hurt
Look for my hope, man I dig and I search
Just to find me a nugget but what is it worth
Only enough its gon' make me keep digging
And dig my own grave its a terrible feeling
What do you know about dying without
The thing you ain't had but fuck living without
Look to the clouds and see niggas with clout
That arose to they status for running they mouth
Never said shit with some substance
But look to the ground and then all of them love it
You grab on you your shovel and keep on your diggin
Girl lookin down and don't ask how you feelin
Show her the rocks that you got, she don't listen
She not impressed with how far you been diggin
She look to the clouds like something is wrong
Turning me off to play all they songs
I keep on digging, I keep on my digging
I keep on my digging just looking for something
I'm looking for depth or for something with substance
Im looking for somebody that prolly fuck with
The will to keep going, depression is hunting
I see that bitch hunting, she stalking at night
I fucked a few times and she ruined my life
Saw that shit coming, she said its alright
Finally got up and got back on my grind
Just to realize theres more dirt In my life
Where am I digging? What am i gone find
What is the goal that I'm having in mind
Am I looking for powers thats gon help me fly
Or am I digging this hole so they marvel my climb
Will I find gold? If I do is it mine
Will I find diamonds? Do all of them shine
Will I find sermons that God left behind
What will I find? I don't know, I keep going
Further I go man the distance keeps growing
I'm losing some friends that I've had since the past
I assume its because they still live there, thats that
And I take all my anger and bottle it up
Put it on shelf that I have and I call it the shelf of
Elijah ain't giving no fucks
Been building for years so I know its robust
But one day its gon fall when I had me enough
Now I keep digging and starting to think
Three feet away from the gold that I need
To take to the surface to make my momma proud
Ascend to place that my girl look in clouds
Take just to show to my father I did
All the shit that I said as a kid
Hold up the gold like I represents peace
Represents grind and my T-I-M-E
Represents everything that I was looking for but in the meantime forgot about me
Forgot that my place is not up there in clouds
Forgot that my worth is not with those on ground
Forgot that I never needed validation
The fact I forgot it had made me impatient
Forgot that that gold cant do too much saving
And when niggas get it, they see that its dangerous
How did I forget