In the Benz (Freestyle)

Damn I just totalled 4 nights on the road back to back
Don't seem like much til you figure out where I'm at
No project that's current but performing all of the slaps
The money that's made getting harder to keep track oh Lord
This isn't who I am but I've become
A version of me that I can live with what I've done,
To paint this image is a mission to overcome
Careful that the sauce don't overrun
No cap and there ain't no gaps to fill
Treat a lot of people like I need em but I'm acting still
Being where I am and a rapper in my city that's an act of will
So no matter what I give lioness all her Daffodils
I make choices old me wouldn't agree with
Imagine wearing your heart on your sleeve while keeping secrets
And charming all the snakes that are tryna cut you the deepest
And charming the women in the same sequence
Jesus
Wish you could be you and the you you are now
Old you wouldn't recognise who you are now
Misunderstanding when I'm talking to myself just how
Does it happen when I knew the person who was here now
I became
Something
That I thought I would never be
Used to be one of those ya what never me
Looked in the mirror and together we
Decided I have to lose myself to find a better me

Who would have thought
I'd find what I ain't intend to
Who would have thought I'd let you
Ever become special
I woulda bet against you
No offence but I meant to
Reference the shit I been through
But I ain't let it affect you
I needed you at your best
To find me at my worst
You could have given me less
But you gave me what I'm worth
And for that I tell you I'm blessed
But not so much with words
Cos my life is still a mess
But what you're doing here it works
You see through it all
The smoke and mirrors they fall
Through
And when it's all
Said and done ima call you
Take time
You never do waste mine
This is the 8th time
I call you on face time
But still
I don't expect a answer but you give it
Especially in a place where all is taken
Nothing given
I don't expect a answer but you give it
Especially in a place where all is taken
Nothing given

Friendships are lost at profit
What a cost
Especially when you the boss
I've calculated the loss
And off it I've made a killing
Then I made me a living
I cannot describe the feeling
There's nothing that's more fulfilling
Than those
Many nights that I chose
Spending time with my woes
Catching flights with the bros
And talking bout all the shows
That we gone get
And all the bags we gone secure G4S
Lord bless the ones I call family
And friends
The ones who are gone stand with me
To the end
And the ones who hold hands with me
In the ends
Same ones who gone ride with me
In the Benz