Mentality

Hol up
Locked up in a cell
Not a man but a shell
Look at how far I've fallen
Every day is like hell
Corked up in a bottle
This ain't no show and tell
Brain going full throttle
Caught up in a spell

Lemme show you inside of my mental
Pure flames, elemental
Mind blown like a headshot
Gotta go on the defensive
Ima show you inside of my mental
Pure flames, elemental
Mind blown like a headshot
Gotta go on the defensive

Never had no assistance
I was all on my own
Serotonin deficient
Now I'm sounding all grown
Medication resistant
I was all on my lone
But I'm staying persistent
Ima get in my zone

Huh, in need of a miracle
Never believed in the voodoo or spiritual
Hiding my pain all inside of the lyrical
Blunt to the face, smoke it down to residual
Plenty of love, it was never reciprocal
Ima just bottle it up cuz it's typical
Y'all couldn't take it inside of my visual
Dopamine levels are little to minimal

Huh, almost gave it up because I couldn't take it, huh
Couple days I swore I wasn't gonna make it, huh
Smiling on the out, but inside slowly breaking, huh
Had to lock me up because I couldn't fake it

Grab a pill then pop it, pop it
Fake a smile, then drop it, drop it
Mental illness, swear I got it
Told em I can't stop it, stop it
Will to live is slowly dropping
Feeling like a dead man walking
Feel them demons slowly stalking
Hear them vultures slowly flocking

Had to switch up the narrative
State of my mind is the newest imperative
Fight it for years, till I'm no longer scared of it
Now is the time to be thinking reparative
Biding my time and I'm slowly preparing
The strength of opponent is so overbearing
I'm in a place where I'm feeling restorative
All of my demons receive a pejorative

It's hard to think that I was in that place before
My life is like a series of some opening and closing doors
Still remember all them nights of sitting crying on the floor
But demons helped to shape me, and my monsters changed me to my core

It's hard to think that I was in that place before
My life is like a series of some opening and closing doors
Still remember all them nights of sitting crying on the floor
But demons helped to shape me, and my monsters changed me to my core

Locked up in a cell
Not a man but a shell
Look at how far I've fallen
Every day is like hell
Corked up in a bottle
This ain't no show and tell
Brain going full throttle
Caught up in a spell

Lemme show you inside of my mental
Pure flames, elemental
Mind blown like a headshot
Gotta go on the defensive
Ima show you inside of my mental
Pure flames, elemental
Mind blown like a headshot
Gotta go on the defensive



Credits
Writer(s): Paul Ametepi
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