Damn Robot

(It's ok! You'll get used to it.)
(Ugh, I'm gonna be sick...)
(Stop complaining! You're a boy, you know.)

It's not my distance from home
That makes me feel a life slipping through me
It's a big metal unknown
And an even bigger responsibility
Another roadside breakdown
But the engine was working fine
Every failure a lesson learned
But I am not a lesson, and there is no next time

I was like a foetus on the floor
Is this what Eva was an allegory for?
I won't get in the damn robot anymore

In Thursday's unhappy dreams
Monsters were wrecking tearing city streets
Drinking blood and billowing smoke
Trapping kids under their metal feet
And I was up in the machine (And I was up six hundred in the sky)
I could feel their eyes all on me (I could feel the burning of their eyes)
My sight blurred in the cockpit (I couldn't do it, I couldn't tell you why)
"It isn't fair!" I said, "What do you want from me?" (I didn't fail, I failed to even try)

There's boys with their toys and then there's me
To onlookers in the vicinity
The damn robot was a measure of my masculinity (Oh, damn robot)

I stood in the hallway alone
I had the note, tear stained on my chest
"Whatever happens, we're proud of you,
And we know you did your best"
But I'm scared (I couldn't do it, I couldn't tell you why)
What if I did (I didn't fail, I failed to even try)
And it wasn't enough? (I couldn't do it, I couldn't tell you why)
And it was all too much (I didn't fail, I failed to even try)

I was like a foetus on the floor
Is this what Eva was an allegory for?
I won't get in the damn robot anymore (Oh, damn robot)

The TV spoke to me in code
I didn't need more than the first episode
The damn robot can go and hit the road (Oh, damn robot)