Gold Roses

I need me a lover
I need me a keeper
I need me some sleep to avoid all these eaters
I need me some smoke I ain't talking bout reefer
This clout got me toxic
She said that I need her
I probably do but won't stop me from cheating
I'm cutting my fingers from her broken pieces
She said that she values but still had to leave me
I still don't know why, I been looking for answers
I know if I call her she prolly won't answer
This ain't how I am and this ain't a new standard
I knew what I wanted, I shouldn't have chanced it
These shots I've been taking, now look where I've landed

Now look where I've landed
Rubber bands snap on these racks
I need me a band aid

I'm catching these feelings I put in my bag
I been swapping out hoes man I don't mean to brag
I missed what I had
There's no looking back
Been making these racks
Don't know where to put em
My life comes with guilt
You can tell by my face by the way I been lookin

Im all on my own in a field growing roses, with guns on the pathway
These pills get me half way

Im way too high
But im feeling fine
She was too good
Why did I lie

And yeah I am grateful but im still entitled
This world got me pissed off
Can tell by my silence
This shit got me wildin

I'm too scared to be loved
I'd rather be hated berated

Im slightly faded
She said that she loved me then left me
I hate all these changes

I'm all on my own in a field growing roses with guns on the pathway
These pills get me half way

I'm way too high
But I'm feeling fine
She was too good
Why did I lie
I do not know but I know that it's time

I'm all on my own in a field growing roses with guns on the pathway
These pills get me halfway

I'm way too high
But I'm feeling fine
She was too good
Why did I lie