Butterfly Theory

I remember it like it was yesterday
The quiet storm was born and underway
Felt like every time the sun would rise
It'd bring demise
To the little lies
I had to tell myself to be okay
Was I foolish or was I just young
Feeling like my mind was strung
What you mean I ain't gon' be
My father's only son
Stepping into new parents on every side of me
I was seven and felt
All I had in this world was gon' be me
Can you help me understand
How to be a man when I
Feel like I'm losing all my grip inside your hand
There's gotta be a way
To shake all this pain
It's been years and I've dealed
But the thoughts remain the same
Can I go back and say

Don't hold on to the pain
Healing just takes time
'Cause if you do
You'll lose your mind
I promise if you stay strong
You will hold on
You'll be one step closer
To the dreams you want

What would have happened on that faithful night
Confused in lust and a lot of oversight
If I would have been more focused
To notice the drink she handed me
Was filled with ulterior motives
Could I have missed the years
I thought would of been the death of me
It's clear my words ain't hit
So I'll keep it plain you see
Would I still have a weary soul
Or let my purity reign
And be for the girl who makes me whole
Jesus just let me know
I know I can't change the past and
Asking these questions won't change
The fact I masked it but
I guess I'm trying to release the tension had
And be more of a man
To shape my life around your plan
And yeah, that aftermath left me shook
But hearing your voice calm the storm
Left me hooked
To some these words ain't gon' mean a thing
But those still listening been there
And they heard you say
Yeah they heard you say

Don't hold on to the pain
Healing just takes time
'Cause if you do
You'll lose your mind
I promise if you stay strong
You will hold on
You'll be one step closer
To the dreams you want