My Thoughts & I.

People be killing, or stealing the wills
It'll never over, anxiety kills
You'll get floods like the ocean of awful emotion it stays right still
I really do think about popping the pill to end all of the sickening pushed to the grill
Burning, creating the wicked it's twisted I'll get the drill
Deep in my skull deep in my heart so vulnerable I was from the start
Checking my pulse it stops at the cost of defeat... I'm fighting the war that I lost
A completely new head is what I will adopt
My head in a bind it's tied in a knot
I'm meant to eat? Oh I forgot
I digest hatred and shock
I hate critical threats I need to force my mind to rest
I need to stay busy before It'll get me because It'll be me what it will infect
I can't change subject
Because It'll be me what it will affect
Please stop leaving me stop deceiving me stop repeating it im not the end
The thoughts in my head
Do I listen? Do I regret?
All these questions to forget
Pass it on to the next victim
Leaving my system yeah
Is it a criminal because it ain't visible this is impossible where the fuck is my respect
I can't find it anywhere
This is not me being so typical I know it's not fair
Chasing a dream and getting knocked down it's worse than my biggest fear in a Nightmare
Back into life but I don't know how I'm sipping on bleach like it's a beverage
I'm in the desolation now, I'm already fighting a losing fight
There's no fucking way that I'm slowing down
Compassion. Making me wanna fly
Increasing the thought should be disallowed
Decreasing the life of mankind
I'm already broken I don't know how
Defining the facts I don't even lie
Yeah, my pride is the thing i defend I stop it all before it gets me
When I say it I do mean all the hate because they don't ever stop inspecting
I do not want anybody so new. People just Like to step in
All of the secrets, all the pretending that's when they start disecting
This is the feeling and this is the part that they never get after a full explanation
It's total insanity, defining gravity, have the Audacity to fuck up my sanity
Leave the brutality I left it mentally I'm fucking insane I do mean that critically
I'm an injection but leave out the lethally I'm like a poison that wears off so quickly

I sit down with my thoughts
Wondering if they wanna talk
N I listen out for all my flaws
It's never been us it's been my thoughts & I
We try to block out the threats from suicide
I've been thinking about you. Don't look me in my eyes

Every single scar has a story when you let someone get you
Then I wanna say that everything does happen for a reason you can't refuse
I'm sick of waiting for a rescue
The only thing what's not on my menu
I wish that I never met you
Leaving me down, you keep on moving
Struggling now, what are you doing?
Struggling how? Is it really confusing?
Leaving me out but you know I'm pursuing
Killing my pride, the thing that you ruin
Dying inside, but I keep on manoeuvring
Being alive but I keep on reusing
My entire life what I keep on renewing
You don't know what's best for me
I fight off all my dreams
You don't what's happening
I'm losing all my self esteem
I'm struggling to the extreme
But that isn't what it seems
My soul... Is what you redeemed
Because you're thinking that you are supreme
Now. You're the one that I hate & it's really amusing this ain't no debate
& I'm Settling down because I got someone better & I'm not afraid but I will tell you Straight
You made me a misery, left me underneath the surface to wait to disintegrate
Then I resurrected... in your face but you called me shit yeah, I did deflate
I deflated. Fuck criticism
While ur gassed I'm still left in prison
Down right beneath the place where I speak all the misery left in my system
Struggling to breathe losses and defeats no where near complete being the victim
Come on underneath praise me on your knees all Intensity being my wisdom

I sit down with my thoughts
Wondering if they wanna talk
N I listen out for all my flaws
It's never been us it's been my thoughts & I
We try to block out the threats from suicide
I've been thinking about you. Don't look me in my eyes



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Writer(s): Samuel Bradley
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