Breakdown

Ha, No matter how much I try to be ok
I am breaking down daily
I am breaking down all to consistent running Ocean of tears
because of how you make me feel

I admitted again today all under beautiful healing sunlight
I won't let anyone make me feel what I don't want to
Here you shouting, screaming, abusing,
making worse fun of me with ur Nightmare hateful words
Noone trust me, being too suspicious of me
everytime, doesn't even lemme what I wanna do
doesn't lemme way I wanna with peace
making useless, worse witch in your fun talks
I tried to be ok but all happening with me in same house
I can't help but badly breakdown, daily
every time a day, a day

I am a human with extreme sensitivity
its a boon but Bane too extremely
I feel ashamed showing my face in front of em'
how I promised to not crash
but here I am breaking down

with all hate...

it's like I can't handle anymore
I am surrender from long but I can't handle anymore

I see the ones who used to be my own beloved family,
Now turned to worse haters
that go far across line to erase my existence
from mine and others eyes

Idk... how I am alive... IDK
those exact ones come in my dreams
giving me hate but conditional love too
Idk.I am all drowning in convoluted emotions
anticipating someone to save me, anticipating for change...
help me...!
can't help... but break down...
I see them loving others, loving their darkest partners
Yet their own hiding darkest enemies...
who don't care...
I can't help but badly breakdown, daily, daily
every time a day...
when all'will be OK??...
I cant help but badly breakdown, daily
every time a day...
when all be OK??...ok