Broken In

Let the soul of the city send me to sleep
Let the noise in my mind sing and cry from the deep
Let memories of pain fade- they're not mine to keep
I'm broken in, but I'm not broken

I'm still here but you changed me
Made me feel like I'm crazy
Pushed my mind down a hill
Made me scared and unwilling to love
And unsure of what's fake or real

'Cause I lose myself inside my head
Spend hours, days, and weeks in bed
And knowing only that I'll dream of you
I'll will a way to wake up
And I'll do my best to hold you inside
I'll shut the jar and seal the lid tight
With duct tape and wishes
And half-hearted lies that I'm doing alright

So keep all of my effort- I hope it was fun
My eyes are wide open- you can't be undone
Still, clouds break away, see, they can't hide the sun
And your lies taught me more than your love

And now I'm the "bad" one
The "shaky and sad" one
The "used to be glad" one
The "looks like 6 months is the most that I'll have 'til I crack" one

'Cause I lose myself inside my head
Spend hours, days, and weeks in bed
And knowing only that I'll dream of you
I'll will a way to wake up.
And I'll do my best to hold you inside
I'll shut the jar and seal the lid tight
With duct tape and wishes
And half-hearted lies that I'm doing alright
I'm doing alright

I feel the lips and the tongue drip away in the heat
I feel the glass in my eyes fall in shards to the street
Though rare and untruthful, she sure could talk sweet
But that game made my head leak with noise

Maybe I'll focus on me now
Though it's tiring to see how
I know someday I'll find out
And I'll treasure myself
'Stead of you and snark
Living free in my mind
From the car left in Park
Leaving me and your keys far behind
No, no,I know you'll grow to be kind
And, knowing only That I'll dream of you
I'll will a way to wake up
Breathe you away and wake up

So let the soul of the city send me to sleep
Let the noise in my mind sing and cry from the deep
Let memories of pain fade- they're not mine to keep
I'm broken in, but I'm not broken