Faded (feat. Kid Jakob)

I was 17 and reckless
Whippin' up a setlist
Felt I finally made it from the pavement to the best shit
Always woke up hungry, cook up music like it's breakfast
I didn't care what fit me, or my voice, or how I lived shit

Yet I still fell into music that would fit with what was in
I would write over a trap beat, get 2 listens again
Same shit, new day
Repetition ain't hittin'
Cuz I would work with words for hours, recognition ain't gettin' it

So I went up on a stage and killed a 10 minute set
Yeah the crowd was fuckin' lovin' it
I'll never forget
2 weeks later pass me by til I was hit with a text
Yeah a label fuckin' wanted me, I wanted the check

I mean approval- not the check that you can cash though
Bein' liked was more important than my cash flow
If I sign one day then I might see my cash grow
But once I signed, I learned that rappin' ain't a cash show

Yeah I crashed hoe
I hit my deepest depression
I was addicted to them pills, I can't get off em, I'm stressin'
But the homies out in D-Town, they were all so damn scared
Worried I may take too many, never wake from my chair

It was bad and all, addicted to the Adderall
Like a basketball, I know I can bounce back tomorrow
But the come-up wasn't worth it
Lost my passion, lost my purpose
All these rappers really hurtin'
Makin' thousands yet feel worthless

This music life shit got me feelin' so faded
My thought was that I made it, I ain't sleepin' on the pavement
This industry is broke, but there ain't nobody sayin' shit
I dove too deep, now my whole life is invested

The millions don't mean nothin' when you let someone control you
They choose whether you suck, or if they wanna promote you
It's too easy to fall for their stupid little games
I just wish I would've skipped em to go find my own way

The way that I felt, was due to cards I was dealt
Got 12 right on our ass, was stressin' how the car smelt
We got 2 zips in the glove, and a strap by our side
Even if we ain't get lit up, we were in for a ride

Too many times I caught myself straight slippin' up
Took amphetamines and poured some lean into a cup
Wasn't satisfied by nothin' so I numbed it with the drugs
Tryna fit with the thugs, I wanted into the club

I ain't had a plan but music, so I do it til I prove it
I know that I got the talent to start a worldwide fuckin' movement
Gon' abuse it til I lose it
This the blueprint that I'm followin'
Me, myself, not no one else
That pill was tough to swallow man

I'm in my bag
You could say I persevered though
Still rappin' bein' honest bout my fears yo
This the best I've fuckin' felt in hella years hoe
I still ain't givin' up, fuck it if it appears so

This music life shit got me feelin' so faded
My thought was that I made it, I ain't sleepin' on the pavement
This industry is broke, but there ain't nobody sayin' shit
I dove too deep, now my whole life is invested

The millions don't mean nothin' when you let someone control you
They choose whether you suck, or if they wanna promote you
It's too easy to fall for their stupid little games
I just wish I would've skipped em to go find my own way

(Find my own way, find my own way)

(Find my own way, find my own way)