2020

I spend time when I look in the mirror
After 12 years of being bitter
It took almost losing my mind to finally see things clearer

Hard to be consistent while constantly chasing brilliance
Had to keep my distance I'm hardly in my feelings
My dog was in the system since Christmas he came out vicious
Talk and my intentions is equal you boys fictitious
Found pictures of my mistress in the phone I handle business with
Enough of that
Shot was butter hooping in the cold in the cul-de-sac
This for Stunna Ollie Keith in fact them boys my zodiac
Used to trust him with my life now I wonder where tony at
Pen and paper first to hear my issues
Fly high Mash I cried that siku you know we miss you
Ion know what ma dukes would have done if I was in his shoes
Pain of losing a son so young is hard to see thru
Biscotti in my lung as I drown myself up in these tunes
I hardly cap
Know for a fact
Your rap cliche serious as a heart attack
Words don't hold no weight
Wait I ain't mean to get into that
I'm all up in yo face fuck a internet tit for tat
If I clap stay out my mention
Theres business pleasure and then there's light sessions
You was in that section when I was in brief depression
You assumed my intentions thought you was my prized possession
Didn't ask no questions when I went in without protection
I was young and foolish
Now I'm cooling I done learned my lesson
Didn't like school but I ain't a fool I keep me a Wesson
In truth I yearned for my turn but now I want seconds
Was quick to take my heart with no hesitation
We grew apart I searched for love outta desperation
I found peace in my lyrics this is my meditation
Now she liking all my pics when I'm out on vacation
How I passed her to my crew you think I'm Gary Peyton
And my niggas lose screws shoot like Jason Tatum
They distort my words boy use em verbatim
Trynna make me look like satan dawg I shame em
My minds been running wild like I'm back in manic mode
2020 was a blur pills on account of those
Built up stress in my past shit was bound to take a toll
You couldn't imagine all the shit goin on up in my dome
I don't hold nothing in no more gimme a beat and I unload
Deepest crevice of my soul I explore more than before
Me and my ego was at war and my mind was keeping the score
Girl after girl at my door never saw I was the whore
Introspected my core as I watched my little sister draw
A stick figure picture of me with a crown killing a boar
And In all honesty dawg that's really who I do it for
Lil mama teach me all these lessons cuz and she's only four
As a young buck coming up I was taught how to conform
No emotion you a warrior nigga that was the norm
Thats like learning how to make love by watching porn
Them niggas acting
Even the savage of savages got they passion