In Rehab

I can't remember I've been sober
Since vices, I've been feeding taking over
Is that the reason why it's getting colder?
And now I'm drifting into nothing
My lungs get filled with something
Can't read the writings on the wall

And now I ask myself what is my fate?
Am I to loose the very best of me?
Depression drags me down into the deep
And this will bring the worst in me

I can't understand why am I giving up on myself?
Its hard to admit (hard to admit)
That addictions starts to take its tall
And where to begin? (where to begin)
And I have lost all glimps of hope
That one day, one day, one day I'll be free from dope

Today I say goodbye to all of my domestic demons
The devil on my shoulder became the pet
That I have learned to live with
Now all I feel inside is working its way to breach the surface
All the struggle, all the pain, the lies - fuck it wasn't worth it
It wasn't worth it
My time has come and I'll go on to leave the past in ashes
Honestly, I'm done with this
It makes me feel like a masochist
Like I wanted to suffer in a self-fulfilling prophecy
I can't stand it - No
I can't take it anymore
My body's aching and I'm breaking down in front of you

Today I say goodbye to all that is pullig me under
But I'm a comeback stronger - hear me roar like a rolling thunder
I am not afraid of failiur as part of my rehab
The strength is growing strong in me and I can take a setback

I can't understand, why am I giving up on myself?
Its hard to admit (hard to admit)
That addictions starts to take its tall
And where to begin? (where to begin)
And I have lost all glimbs of hope
That one day, one day, one day I'll be free from dope
Stop taking shots to the chest (Stop taking shots to the chest)
Stop being stuck in the mist (Stop being stuck in the mist)
Stop risking all that I've got (Stop risking all that I've got)
And face the rage rising up (Face the rage rising up)