No Matter

Running out of time whilst slowing losing your mind
It's a miracle that i'm even getting by
Running out of time whilst slowing losing your mind
It's a miracle any of us are actually getting by

Why oh why am i a joke
Why oh why does no one really care
It's like i have to actively put up a wall
Between me and everyone

I kinda feel like i'm dying
On the inside
And my head feels cloudy
Yet i keep on getting, by

I would ask what the hell is wrong with me
But no one really seems to care so what's the point
And at that this time

It's all a bit self explanatory
I'm just a kid who's lost
And looking for that one person

That one person to give me all the warmth
And quiet and guidance
And re-assurance
That i'm worth the time

And that i'm doing alright
And that i'm pretty good
And that i'm doing great
And that i did a good job

And that i've got something special inside that no one else besides me has
That one person to fall when i get mad
That one person to, love and cherish me
No matter what, i do
No matter how many times, i fuck up

No matter how many times, that i lose i'll still be special in their heart
And i'll still be a winner
No matter what i'll be, there at the start

I know what i'm looking for
But i doubt i'll ever find it
Until then, i'll just be lost
And everything will be clouded