Still Staring At Your Coffin - Remastered

I could've done more, so my family believed
I'm sorry that I couldn't be what you need
I'm sorry that I thought it was time to leave
I know you that you're struggling your head on your knees
I'm sorry I failed, never found my own way
I'm sorry I'm bringing such cloudy days
My purpose was lost, the water kept rising
I said I was happy, deep down I was lying
Fell victim to the game we all know as life
This will be the last thing that I ever write
The only solution is what you now know
But I'll be looking down and smile as I watch you all grow
This is my decision, no one will understand
I know this is pathetic, I'm supposed to be a man
But I just can't do it, I've tried and I've tried
When you read this letter please do not cry

I just read your letter, why did you go
You faced the demons you never would show
I should have done more, I should've been there
I'm sorry that you felt nobody would care
But this is a tragedy so young and bright
I have been praying night after night
The pain that you felt, no one should feel
And nobody knew, is this even real
I can give support, be there when you need
All you that you wanted was someone to lead
In the right direction, rise from where you were
But this just ain't you, all I saw was smiles
Before all this happened, no answer when I dialed
I'm paralyzed with grief, I've been in stuck in my house
Trying to understand what was this all about

I'm angry that you're gone, that I wasn't there
This is so crazy I know I'm not prepared
To face another death, especially you
Staring at your coffin is the worst kind of view
So much potential, why did it have to end
You were like a brother, so much more than a friend
This is not the answer, this is not the way
And taking your own life will never be okay
Everybody grieving, another young soul leaving
So many questions, yet not much to believe in
Heads all down, tears forming puddles
We need to do better, in facing this struggle
You won't be forgotten, my life is now yours
If you are listening, you were always adored
If I knew better, you would be here today
Thinking 'bout you brother, as this song plays

Now I've read your letter, I wish you were here
Still so many questions and I'm covered in tears
Nothing lasts forever, this much is true
I'm still staring at your coffin, still missing you