Drowning

It's been a while since we last saw each other
Texts are slow yeah one from another
Like I gotta wonder, what's pulling me under
Guilts been hitting me as hard as thunder

Who knew that I had the power to change
Yeah taking shots that's just way out of my range
Feeling deranged going estray gotta get on my knees and pray
Last night was a blast but that was all up in the past not sure how long I was passed
I know that I can let people down
Always gotta frown
Why does it feel like my whole world's coming down

I don't wanna run anymore
Tired of feeling less than more
Gotta get through this old war
Gonna tear me up from the core
My ships going down can anyone save me
Waters rising I think I'm doubting all I can do is keep on shouting
In reality I know I'm just drowning

How many times is it gonna have to take before I'm gonna get myself awake
Life's like a snake it's good at injecting all of the venomous things you rejecting

Been fighting every battle and bro was I rattled with all the drugs in my lungs and my Mind been scrambled
They say I'm an angel but why do I always feel unstable nah
All emotions going over my head if I don't swim then I'll just wind up dead
That's why I keep them all in check so no one finds me inside the wreck
Gotta stand up proud gotta stand up tall or one day they'll take over and I'll just fall

I don't wanna run anymore tired of feeling less than more
Gotta get through this old war
Gonna tear me up from the core
My ships going down can anyone save me
Waters rising up I think I'm doubting all I can do is keep on shouting
In reality I know I'm just drowning

All I want is everyone to get along cause that's how we're able to all stay so strong
Gotta build em up gotta quit dissing cause theirs billions of lives that we all be missing

Gotta stop the water by pulling the plug cause death is waiting for that big cold hug
The boys got my back we all in the pack you gotta problem then say hello to my little Strap
It never matters who you are cause nothing good comes when you never work hard

I don't wanna run anymore tired of feeling less than more
Gotta get through this old war. Gonna tear me up from the core
My ships going down can anyone save me
Waters rising up I think I'm doubting all I can do is keep on shouting
In reality, I know I'm just drowning