I Remember (Spoken Word)

But I can't do this missing you anymore
My feet ache from pacing on this hardwood floor
The very same one our bare feet danced on
So many months before
The autumn breeze, the colorful leaves
This city
It made you take everything we almost had

I remember all of it
I wish I didn't
That great big house was your newfound home
There was home

You laughed, as I was sleeping
Downstairs on the couch
I would tell you about my dreams
And the music that came in them

I'd sing in the morning light
Shy as can be, but my smile relieved
In the sunshine, safe and sound
Where I wish you could always stay
And I would know you're okay

And not wonder if you wake up some days
With the song that I sang on your lips
Remembering how I'd change the melody each time
Just to see if you'd remember
Hoping these moments would be in your memories like I knew they'd be in mine

I still remember it all
Like a song echoing in my mind
I can't seem to forget about

And I spent Christmas Day in tears
I left the smiles and laughter
And broke alone because you weren't here
And a commercial came on
And in the background was your favorite song
The one you said I reminded you of

We were driving upstate
You said it was a beautiful life
That you couldn't wait to spend with me

But I can't do this missing anymore
My feet ache from pacing on this hardwood floor
We had a picnic here one late night
I spilled the wine
I remember all of it
I wish to god
That I didn't