Ghost In the Shadows

I look around the world thinking of all that I could be
The premonition of culture and loss undoubtedly
Am I a star that shoots outward longing to just be free
When I was caged in these bars dreaming of feeling trees
I guess the truth of my story is that it's full of pain
I got these visions and dreams in my head I'm not insane
For me to lose everything that I love what's left to gain
Still that kid in that room seeing moms eyes stained

I'm pushing past what they tell me I won't even become
Sneezing and sneaking and freezing 90 plus in the sun
They think that laughing and chatter causing cold air to front
But all these obstacles driving and just fueling the jump
Benefactors roles getting swole stopping now that's a joke
Got all this pressure just rising prison looming don't choke
Just hoping five ain't the years before I'm smelling the smoke
Writing reality tragically emphatic the notes

I see a ghost in the shadows future slipping tears dripping shallow
Take away the fear that he goes sleeping never dreaming up on ten toes

I'm swimming deep in my head just known the truth all along
Just fighting demons and legions heartache past the baton
Aye clipping edges of present satisfaction that's gone
Yo worries are them Jordan's and hair all while I'm stressing bout bond
I'm 22 but priorities are just different than yours
The penitentiary calling but your buying diors
I wanna breathe and be free and have a family that's mine
But you out partying drinking shopping wasting your time
I'm a millennial stuck in the wrong time zone
Mentally ahead of the game a lab rat clone
Searching for a place not erased on maps called home
No lyrical facade or applause just love sick loans
Sweating and vetting the cheddar in summer buying scones
Beating em even and chiefing wit tj chronic shown
Palm on my temple it's simple simping schematic blown
Shattered the pattern just matter gravity laws known

I see a ghost in the shadows Future slipping tears dripping shallow
Take away the fear that he goes Sleeping never dreaming up on ten toes

I got a girl that I constantly tell of my dreams
We talking loyal and wife her having kids on the swing
But at this point I'm my life what do I offer this thing
Seems like my future is drifting lost at sea hear the ding
I ask myself everyday to her am I even worth it
I'm on my knees and I'm asking God to define my purpose
I see my life outta wack the oil low it need service
Man and that check engine light is bright my heart it is jerking
I'm in a box and I'm desperately just wanting to breathe
I wanna know that ones I love won't ever leave
Writing these thoughts in my head because they lose on the leaf
Pack all this pain and this brokenness and ship it to sea
Yo I look up at the sky and see I'm racing the clock
I'm talking time it moves forward doesn't wait it don't stop
Don't know just how much is building behind tears that won't drop
I see a ghost in the shadows reaching for me I'm got