Lie to Myself

All those times that I would lie to myself
While you would fuck around with everyone else
It's not good for yours or my mental health
I'm slowly turning into somebody else

And I'm feeling up and down
Feeling up and down

And I didn't wanna love you, I didn't wanna cry
But I can't help but wonder who you're out with tonight
So, do me a favour, and don't let me know
'Cause I can't handle it

Whatever you do, don't tell me the truth
Whatever you do, don't tell me the truth
No, I don't wanna know what you've been up to
Whatever you do, don't tell me the truth
Not the truth

I'll probably see you through a mutual friend
And you'll tell me all about your perfect weekend
You're moving up, and you've got money to spend
I say "good for you", I smile and pretend

And tell myself that
I'm not going up and down
Not going up and down

And I didn't wanna love you, I feel, don't wanna cry
But I can't help but wonder who you're out with tonight
So do me a favour, and don't let me know
'Cause I can't handle it

Whatever you do, don't tell me truth
Whatever you do, don't tell me truth
No, I don't wanna know what you've been up to
Whatever you do, don't tell me truth
Not the truth

That was a dick move
And honestly, I find that you are so cruel
I never would have trusted or defended you
Yeah, you know it too
So next time, baby

Whatever you do, don't tell me the truth
Whatever you do, don't tell me the truth
No, I don't wanna know what you've been up to
Whatever you do, don't tell me the truth
Not the truth

And I didn't wanna love you, I didn't wanna cry
But you keep up calling through the middle of the night
So, do me a favour, just let me go
'Cause I can't handle it