October

I can not sleep anymore
And my feet barely touch the floor
My head is still burning for when
My nightmares scared me from my bed
These sounds they get uneasily loud
From all these people who're so proud
That they have all theses social friends
To laugh and party out with them
I have no friends who do not think
That I am not so annoying
That wanna hang with me outside
That wanna take me out tonight

I forgotten what to do
I overslept woke up in drool
Now its late I should get up
But I dont wanna fuck this up
Coffee and tea just aren't enough
To keep myself from throwing up
And seeing all these people have
The time of their lives makes me so sad

I look at all these little screens
Showing people around me
Having fun, I can't have fun
I go outside I feel so stunned
So kick me closer deeper to
The bottom of my rotting grave
I've drawn prophecies of you
With crayons melted from my pain
It's like the biggest party in
Inside of my head that no
One can hear, It's in my ears
Oh get it out please disappear

I forgotten what to do
I overslept woke up in drool
Now its late I should get up
But I dont wanna fuck this up
Coffee and tea just aren't enough
To keep myself from throwing up
And seeing all these people have
The time of their lives makes me so sad
Theres a party in my head
But that party is so dead
And nobody came when I
Invited them to come tonight
Theres people outside of my house
Theres people screaming in my room
Theres blood when I look up and down
And they'll be partying till noon