Suicide.

I been so alone, nobody callin' my phone
Every breath I take, lose a lil' more hope
No one on my side, do this shit on my own
Don't tell me that you love me, 'cuz I know that you don't

I figured this shit is just do or die
Last night I thought about suicide
Always thought that you would ride

Everyday a challenge, devil always tryna fold me
Said that you was there, but you was never there to hold me
You don't understand what you did that made me OD
Ever since then I ain't ever felt okay

I've been.
Pushing so long starting to feel even worse
Pray every night, yet I only feel cursed
Losing faith in God, not reading from the source
So I try to put my prayers up in every single verse

Crying out for help, ain't nobody flockin'
Havin' episodes hoping someone is watchin'
Stressing so hard, I can feel my head throbbin'
When I see a glock, man a nigga get to plottin'

Take one to the chest, then another to the dome
Making sure it kill me, send my ass back home
In eternal flames is where I belong
And I really hate to say it, this the realest shit I wrote

Parents probably listening feelin distressed
Siblings probably listening thinking I'm a mess
Everybody else probably thinking, "Who'd guess"
But I'm getting tired feeling down, and then acting like I'm blessed

Acting like I'm blessed
Man I only feel depressed
So many things I can't even address
So many things that you'd never expect

I been spending every night of mine fighting all the demons
Screaming out to God every day for a reason
Trapped in a prison with no hope of some freedom
God why'd you take him and leave me here breathin'

Take me away, this a life I don't deserve
Beg every day that you take me off this earth
Know these people listening thinking I'm absurd
I don't want the attention, I just gotta say these words

My heart it feels strained, brain has been stained
Lost all the good, in return nothing gained
Stayed in my lane, walked through the rain
Just like I should, a nigga only feels pain

I'm just asking for help
And nobody can tell
That I wanna kill myself
I'm just scared to go to hell

I been so alone, nobody callin' my phone
Every breath I take, lose a lil' more hope
No one on my side, do this shit on my own
Don't tell me that you love me, 'cuz I know that you don't

I figured this shit is just do or die
Last night I thought about suicide
Always thought that you would ride