the others

Emergency room
Thoughts flooding
My ego
Giant
Wish i could redo
Moments in my life
I'm just tryin
To be a better person
Like whatever it takes
I've made so many mistakes
But you know that i would change
In seconds
If i even had the chance
All i want to do is be a better man
And these meds ain't helping
I need some serious help
I almost... myself
I feel like i'm in hell
I gotta climb this hill
It feels like fighting myself
I gotta call up my lady
And tell her i'm well
I've always felt like shit
Everything's got consequences
Life's consistent
The way i act distant
I got nothing in my system
Yeah
No i'm not playing victim
I need some new medicine
Always fighting with my relatives
Only 2 people in my life that help
Me and they help me like a sedative (yeah)

I, might seem to distant
In my dreams i'm wishing wishin
I, don't wanna be treated like the others
Until i close my eyes for the last time
Don't treat me like another
One no
I don't wanna be treated like a brother
Because i'm still in love while you still love another
One no

I feel vilified
I ain't been able to chill or sigh
This is like a mental homicide
I been staying on the other side
Funny how i used to love my life
Guess that was in another life
In this new time feel irrelevant
You gotta be excellent
For a chance to shine
Ever since maria died
I ain't been ok since
Had my withdrawals within
Like my minds cavin in
Back when i use to have paranoia
I used to want to run away
But that was before i lost you
Was like get me out another day
This shit just be killin me mentally
Mentally ill
After i found out the truth and revealed
It wasn't you
The truth really hurt
It's hard to forgive you
It's making me worse
It's killing me inside
Making me distant i ain't alright

I, might seem to distant
In my dreams i'm wishing wishin
I, don't wanna be treated like the others
Until i close my eyes for the last time
Don't treat me like another
One no
I don't wanna be treated like a brother
Because i'm still in love while you still love another
One no