Happiest Mask

You know me
Better than you know yourself sometimes
And you tell me I need help
I need someone to listen

And every last second you spend without me
But killing your presence just to create peace
And I've had it
I'll see you in the city

I can't rest until we meet
Gathering up all my memory
(Collecting mindsets before I leave)
(Gathering mindsets to turn into weaves)

I'm too scared to remain alive
But I'm too weak to pursue a fight
(Collecting mindsets before we grow)
(Gathering mindsets from great unknown)

I think my brain is turning off
But I still miss when we talked alot
(Collecting mindsets before I leave)
(Gathering mindsets to turn into weaves)

And I cant rest before we talk this out right
It's been too long since I've held your words tight
(Collecting mindsets before we grow)
(Gathering mindsets from great unknown)

(Collecting mindsets before I leave)
(Gathering mindsets to turn into weaves)

I'm walking down a bike bath
To see a friend
I've led astray
Whether good or bad or right or wrong
Or whatever they all say

Cigarette smoke becomes visible from
Flashing cars afar
My mind pretends I can smell it
Even though it's a block away

I memorize the patterns of words you always say
Playing devil's advocate to humble me
'Cause I'm always led astray
You're the only one that had ever heard of me,
When I silently called for help
I wonder if it's definitive to say I'll never get you back

All those times we laced through pine
On our bedroom floors
We were talking cross country it was easy to ignore
I loved you I still love you
And I always have to change