Count Me Out

I can't stand the way I self actualize
But only when it's 3 am and I'm crying
'Cause I know all the things I could ever do
If I just pushed myself around the way that you used too
Late to start this, too early to do that
So I just sit here in the dark having a heart attack
'Cause I have counted sheep or counted on friends
And everyday it seems, there are less and less of them
So do it on your own that's always my advice
Or do it fewer times, I'm sorry that's the price
But it all becomes a job, once you start to care
You could go to therapy, or you could dye your hair

And I am trying not to try so hard
I am trying not to try but-

Heavy is the head that steals the crown
As it rolls across the battered ground
So count me out
Count me out

And I can't stand the way you've heard this all before
'Cause I would love to say my piece and even the score
But every thought we have and feeling we produce
Has been thought and felt before, we are so overused
And all the words I say, just bounce right off of you
I could scream right in your ear and you would have no clue
So I have done what I can make this effortless
'Cause I won't be the one to make another mess
But there's only so long
A girl like me can hold her tongue
I think it's safe to announce
Self control has left the house

And I am trying not to try so hard
I am trying not to try but-

Heavy is the head that steals the crown
As it rolls across the battered ground
So count me out
Count me out

Heavy was the head wore the crown
'Til it fell right off me, to the battered ground
Will you count me out?
Will you count me out?

I am trying not to try so hard
I am trying not to try
I am trying not to try so hard
I am trying not to try
So count me out