Pumpkins

Pumpkins sweetening on my doorstep under the moon
I try not to, but I can't help to think about you
Tossing turning, restless in my bed for hours on end
Pointless aching, toothless making up, let's be friends

It's not halloween if you're not mad at me
So I'm not feeling festive, I have no decorations
I hate to feel so empty on a night that should be happy
So I'm just going to sleep, I'll work it out in the morning
Light shines through my open window, keeps me up
I don't want to close it or face the monsters in my closet

They are nothing without me
Hiding everything I've ever been ashamed of
Underneath my sweater I'm
Better off alone because there's nothing much but
Smiles and fear
Smiles and fear

I hate feeling lonely, we should watch a movie
Finish that one series, I want to know the ending
As for you and me, I know we saw this coming
Cause I'm just skin and bones
I'm barely breathing
Got your mind set on a vision, a family
I don't want to change you
Or drain you until your skin's grey and blue

I'd never be happy with a life
Where I'm expected and I'm needed
You're deserving of the life you wanted
And you should do what you have to to get there
My broken bones and brain might want a life
Where I'm expected and I'm needed
But I know me well enough to say
I wouldn't know what to do once I got there



Credits
Writer(s): Noah Lusk, Zach Gulledge
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