The Habit (Last Time I Blow You)

I got out to get in
I've paid for every one of my sins
Like a hole in my head
I want you back, I wish you were dead

If you're wanting some kind of reaction
I'm calm and I'm high at the same time
You creep up behind me, wherever I go, you find me
Do you want me to put on a show?

If this is the last time I blow you, then I've gotta be sure
I'm giving up, this time
'Cause if I let you control me, then you've gotta be pure
Exhilaration, to last me a while but I'm not yours

Now there's a space, at ten'o'clock
My schedule's clear 'cause you've got the slots
Like a pain in my butt
I wanna walk away but I'm stuck

Between a rock and a hard place
When you give me comfort and joy
But after we row, I'm putting you out
I don't want a bitter taste in my mouth
I'm getting away from you to recover

If this is the last time I blow you, then I've gotta be sure
I'm giving up, this time
'Cause if I let you control me, then you've gotta be pure
Exhilaration, to last me at least 'til lunchtime

I can't give you up
You'll wear me out in time (ah, ah, ah, ah)
I'm losing my sleep, I'm slurring my speech
I've gotta put you right out of my reach
There's no other way to cure this addiction

If this is the last time I blow you, then I've gotta be sure
I'm giving up, this time
'Cause if I let you control me, then you've gotta be pure
Exhilaration, to last me a while

If this is the last time I blow you, then I've gotta be sure
I'm giving up, this time
'Cause if I let you control me, then you've gotta be pure
Exhilaration, until the next time but I'm not yours