Impatience

I had to run from my self experimenting
But it was all for my health big deppression
But that was always an L to write about
Cause it was all really selfish to talk about
You see me smile every time i be walking out
Cause i don't have a fucking thing to be upset about
But somehow i can find a way to see the dark clouds
In all the light i choose darkness to talk bout
I can't really blame nobody else cause it was all me
Anxiety and social standards they were beyond me
Sobriety and good manners is what they all see
A blunt and maybe two xanaxes is what i might be soon
Ain't nobody gon predict what my soul might go through
I'll see satan i'll see god don't know what i might choose
Baby jesus please forgive me for the line i drew
The realism of my thoughts has always been my doom

I don't really even know what i believe anymore
So many thoughts inside my brain like i'm addicted to porn
I see green inside this blunt bitch ima breath in the forest
I'm a searcher for the soul bitch i believe in a core
And if i die along the way please never visit the mourge
Shit be happening for a reason i was destined to sore
If i live to tell the tail bitch ima feel more important
I don't ever feel alone cause all these demons adore me
I don't like to interact so i just learned to hide
But over time i do mature and start to realize
Everytime that i do that people antagonize me
So ima take a cold drink and smoke into the sky
Whoever try to fuck with me i promise ima slide
I don't give a fuck unless a female try to penalize
Bitch i got a female and you know we can set up fights
Ima fund my music how i can so ima charge five
Scared of the gambling cause we deal with the devil
And we can't trust the hand that we were delt so we settle
And we try never to fold but we're not tempted to raise
If i was over my head like that i'd give it away
But if i bet on my head i could come out with a payment
But there's a 50 percent chance i could end in the pavement
I don't rely on resolve cause i get way too complacent
If i gave satan a sniper where do you think he would aim it
These enemies are tryna be my ride
All these drugs in the car are tryna feed my eyes
Won't give into temptation It would not be wise
Pills could do penetration where my heart resides
How my life is evasion is for god to decide
Won't show retaliation he decides my life
All the manipulation in my life gets by
While I'm walking around it like i lost my sight
While gripping the faith i try to double down
Gotta stay impatient need to hide the frown
Baby knows now a days i'm feeling lost and found
I just want me a wraith that's worth a hundred thousand more than i got
This guns got a hundred rounds
But it's not full of bullets it's full of sounds
With all these instrumentals i'm whippin out
Better find me a hit like this lick i found

If I give out on the fate i'm giving into temptation
But that ain't solving the case of my dilema impatience
I've been working to death i ain't been given one raise
You never get out of bed damn i remember those days
Can't afford to be lazy when earning minimum wage
When i look into the past damn how i make a mistake like that
Shit that i thought wouldve lasted i guess that's what we all day
Ay que cojerlo con calma like daddy yankee might say
Yeah yeah