Introvert (Godian Angel)

Guardian angel I feel More lost then ever been
All my morals tossed in the heavens
And forced to fall to irrelevant
Protocols of the seven sins
Offen pretend flirting with death
knowing we probably better as friends
I practice Self apocalyptic propositions
til my mental can't recall when I started letting them in
He said After you done doing business with the finish line
You gon disappear in the smoke
and then reappear as a tear
In the eye of a sinner crying
See I knew resurrection is the karma from the shit you hide
And all the dirt that ya did from ya past life personified
My guardian angel smiled
And said you can't fully enjoy life if taking
risks aint involved
And Loneliness is just not having a relationship with god
But I popularized going in head first but still land on my feet
He said we determine the real winners by who handles defeat
Then I asked what is cost to breathe
Cuz I've been down so long that suicide is having thoughts of me
Before he can rebuttal I cut him off
and he looked at me like I was insane for it
Painful is having all this skill to get shamed for it
And being unable to explain ya plan A
to the people who were made normal
He said I Would tell you what happens in the end
but the games spoiled already
they ain't deserving of ya presence I know
Why do I have so much anxiety
Why do the people I would die for choose to lie to me
What does my girl feel so lonely
when shes there standing on the side of me
What doesn't my father ever want to try practing sobriety
I Had to keep that bottled in so long like it never bothered me
Why doesn't god ever try help healing our trauma
So we don't have to pass the pain down
before it's revealed to our daughters
I told him don't mean to yell but all this is weighing on me
and its really my melting heart
He said why don't you express and tell
How you felt from the start
How you felt from the start
Cuz even if the thoughts in my mind protected
I feel like no matter what I say is pointless
knowing only god can help them
So Instead I send prayers in y'all direction
Please help us
My Guardian Angel's Part of the problem why I'm so introvert
I'll argue with him for the start of the album as the intro verse
I'll argue with him then at the start of the album
as the intro verse