easier

You're laying on your bed, the lights are low
You can hardly feel yourself stand up slow
As you stand and look around, you silently say goodbye
As a quiet comes over your room
The world feels like it's given up on you
Not a tear to cry, you just finally decide
You've had enough, you tell yourself you'll feel better now

But put your fingers to your neck, feel your heart beat in your chest
As you grab the handle and try to shut the door
Just remember how it felt, when she told you she needed you more
You look up at a picture on your wall since you were four
Pretty soon you won't need it anymore
To remind yourself of a time that felt easier

You struggle to try to catch your breath
All the quiet has disappeared inside your head
You start to wonder, what would this really mean?
You've convinced yourself no one would miss you
After all the times she swore she loved you too
But you're still holding onto hope you'll find somewhere
Where you can hold her hand again
You'll meet her when nothing seems to matter anymore

But put your fingers to your neck, feel your heart beat in your chest
As you hold the handle and you start to think some more
Just remember how it felt, when you kissed her as you left her at her door
As you look up at the sky, you begin to realize
Will you ever get to get to see the stars again
You'll be somewhere else, somewhere you swear will be easier

You let the handle go and close your eyes
You feel a silence start to scream inside your mind
The world out there makes you feel so scared sometimes