Featuring Uzuhan

I'm so old
Fucking old
My mind has tried to change myself
And kept me running from myself for years

I've tried it all
I've never changed
I'm not satisfied with current states
My entire life is acting strange and
I don't like it

I'm afraid of staying scatterbrained
My whole future me would never change
Cause I've seen it all like Doctor Strange
And I don't like it
I don't like it

The way I should feel seems so desperately out of reach
It's like I'm moving on a circle I can't see
And by the way
What is time?
Why I'm so scared of my life time?
I should think less and use more of it
All the time
All the time

I didn't like the shape of my legs
Felt bulky
I wished they were straight like an edge
Pull it over my head
When I put on the threads
I think it looks better on the mannequin

I only see the defects
I only see the blemishes
I only see the things I wanna change
In comparison
I only see the ways I fall short
But you would never guess
I wanna learn to love to my own skin, I wanna cherish it

I wanna see this all as a part of my journey
I'm not embarrassed if
People think that I should have it figured out
Self acceptance is such a long road
Hope you learn to travel on it, make your way out
On these twists and turns
You might trip and burn
But discover a power you didn't see at first
Maybe this ain't all that bad

And I wanna see this all as a part of my journey
I'm not embarrassed if (not embarrassed if)
People think that I should have it figured out (fuck that)
Self acceptance is such a long road (long road)
Hope you learn to travel on it, make your way out (way out)
On these twists and turns
You might trip and burn
But discover a power you didn't see at first
Maybe this ain't all that bad