Sis

Hey sis
I've been tryna call you it's been two years since
You left our mother broken hearted
Thats one fucked up bliss
Guess you got what you wanted huh?
Cowardly shit
It's bull shit
But you don't give a damn
Lost in my emotions tryna be the better man
Put your weight up on my shoulders
Lately feeling like i can't
I wanna know you're safe
But might never see you again what?

Uh
Hey there sis
Been so long it feels like in my life you barely exist
I'll tell the story from my side on the way things hit
Cause it hit different when you don't know any reason for it
You change your number lock us out
and aint no key that fit
I need an answer or a reason why this family split
Our father paid all of the bills, held it still and kept it real
And instead of facing the demons you blame him for pain you feel?
It's fucked up
But I don't know the signs
Everything was normal, my whole life was looking fine
Never would have thought that in just the blink of an eye that my sister would go missing
Had to put my life aside and realize
That I had to put my head down and grind for my momma cause
My heart denies seeing decline
Every night I go to bed and pray to god that you're alive
Hope you're doing well, cold world, hope you can survive
Oh
And our mother's doing well
Dad's got better health
We got better wealth
You could have gave an effort to give us a little help
Instead you chose the small path only caring bout yourself
But its cool though
Play it off, know I aint a fool though
If I ever was the problem hope you listen to this through though
Apologies the only thing left I gotta do so
Say this with an open heart
I miss you it's a new low for me
Fuck it
Bring me back the beat
Everybody knows we act the way in which speak
Once again i'll never know the things you went through every week
But I sure know that telling therapy was never ever free
You share your problems, pay some dollars, for a college degreee
He gets paid just to listen to you, weeks can repeat
How the hell you gonna tell a stranger info so discrete
You've chosen others over blood
Shit cuts way too deep
When you had left the world had crumbled I felt six feet deep
And now the things are looking brighter, mom can finally sleep
I end this off very simple sis, you're somethin unique
I send you love from up above
I've finally made my peace

I've finally made my peace
Sis I let you go but your souls with me
Knowing money's my whole motive cause the love ain't cheap