Grief

Pain and pleasure
Joy and despair
Loyalty's rare
Ain't find the queen of ma dreams jus' yet but when I do imma sit and jus' stare

Utat'ond'zalayo azang'a kathale
Robbed me off a childhood and not hardly
He loved me falsely
I wish a big bag for my sis
Forget the fact that we were fatherless
And in times like this
Take solace in that
If he were here today he'd still be holding us back
Can't even explain
UMvulane I'm proud to bear his name
Without a doubt the realest nigga to me
Lost him so young still my biggest tragedy
It's a tough chapter to close
But this is my cross I suppose
No calls and no texts on no phone
He finally left me alone
I hope that he's resting in peace, the peace he failed to give to his own

Yeah yeah
These thoughts and memories don't jus fade
It put me in a lonely space
I had no dad to call on through any phase
Through rainy days
No guidance no hand
He was good at pretend
Never held up his end
Never trust what he said
Yeah

What it does to me
What it does to me
What it does to me
What it does to me
What it does, what it does to me
What it does to me
What it does to me
Yeah

That's not a real man he always jus fled
Committed to his cup instead
They gon' say to never speak ill of the dead
But that don't matter to me
My story is valid
No worries at all my momma did manage
That's why we're living this way
Can't nobody else come take her credit
The grief I still smell it