Dirty Blessings

Let me tell you a story
About all my life
I know I said I'd never lose myself to this depression
I keep a prayer almost closer than I keep my weapon
Learnin' lessons still ain't make a way to make it lessen
My dirty blessins always kept me rough around the edges
Broken heart, healed smile that's my day to day
I know that heavens gates is only just a ways away
No one gets I always say the shit I say to say
I'm barely 23 and
I think I'm sick of takin shots I'd rather fade away

Even when I lose my mind
Even when I hate my life
I know it's ugly when this shit gets ugly
I been trippin' so much that my smile clumsy now
Pretty nigga, wit' a pretty sad face
Pretty nigga, wit' a pretty sad face
I know it's ugly when this shit gets ugly
I been trippin' so much that my smile clumsy now

A wife beater had taught me to wear these wife beaters
Tears helped me see shit for real, they made my eyes cleaner
Dreamin' of a day shit'll change done made me a light sleeper
Honestly I'm sick of these crocs, I need the nice sneakers
Honestly got sick of these bops, I hadda level up
Honestly I kicked so much rocks, that now the level up
Build a wall around myself, tear it down to fix it up
Used to give the world the finger, now I just don't give a fuck
Now I skip on shootin' stars, now I keep the pistol tucked
Always go the extra mile, I can't get an inch of luck
Think my heart just way too big, or Texas just ain't big enough
I can never find a sender every time I'm givin' up
Really in perspective Jesus spun the block and lit it up
Swear he took me out the way I feel like trash and in the dumps
I been so secluded I think me and god the only ones
I can tell the story but just promise that it's only once

Even when I lose my mind
Even when I hate my life
I know it's ugly when this shit gets ugly
I been trippin' so much that my smile clumsy now
Pretty nigga, wit' a pretty sad face
Pretty nigga, wit' a pretty sad face
I know it's ugly when this shit gets ugly
I been trippin' so much that my smile clumsy now

Sometimes you gotta look in the mirror
To see those broken pieces clearer



Credits
Writer(s): Samuel Ndawula Ii
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