DIE

Suicide
Suicide, yea
I don't want to die by suicide
But there's something in my head saying "It's alright"
I could miss out on an event that I could've liked
I'm scared, I don't know how I'm gonna die, yea

They told me I'm no longer needed and
That I'm not welcomed anymore
I looked at these dudes once before and
Thought I had to run up my score
I'm always bored, once a whore
Had to be with someone to feel less insecure
And that's just it
I'm living a life people call a sin
I don't get it
How can they be mad at me if they're the ones that's winning?
I'm at fault, I don't know when to stop or go
My life's so bad it's like a reality show
No, I'm alone
Just because I have friends doesn't mean they like to call
I wasn't supposed to get this far
I'm past my expiration date
I Thought I'd be dead right now
I wasn't supposed to make it past eighth grade
I wanna quit my job but where will I get my money from? Yea
People are so fucking rude
In my head, I might just make bomb

Suicide
Suicide, yea
I don't want to die by suicide
But there's something in my head saying "It's alright"
I could miss out on an event that I could've liked
I'm scared, I don't know how I'm gonna die, yea
I decide
I decide, yea
My fate is what I'm gonna decide
But there's something in my head that screams "DIE"
I don't know what to do but the choice is mine
I'm scared, I don't know how to live my life, yea

I feel like I'm so clueless, soulless
What was I supposed to do? Admitted
I'm not very strong-headed
One disappointment, I say "Forget it!"
Lock myself inside my home and
Thinking I might end it
But I don't stress it
Pull myself back out of the hole I created
Damn, it's amazing
I'm scared of the empty, the unknown
I really hate living on my own
I wanna get pulled out of the danger zone
I say I love my life when really I don't
"Everything will be alright," how will we know?
I could die tonight or maybe I won't
Love ain't on my side
Gave it up a while ago, I'm forever alone
"Eh, you're a disappointment, Ky!"
"I know"
Well then, get the fuck inline
'Cause I have the right to hate myself first
I take my mistakes and turn them into lessons that I've learned
My problems were not observed
He was gonna throw me and her to the curb
It's absurd
Always wanted to fight the curve
Everything became so blurred
Success is what I prefer, I hope big bills immerge
I need to start watching my words
Sometimes I wanna be unheard but the trama will eat me first
Lost half my family to the lies, they turned
Different place but I still didn't trust my eyes
Of that place where I was gonna, I might
I told myself that he wasn't gonna change
My god was I right, yea

Suicide
Suicide, yea
I don't want to die by suicide
But there's something in my head saying "It's alright"
I could miss out on an event that I could've liked
I'm scared, I don't know how I'm gonna die, yea
I decide
I decide, yea
My fate is what I'm gonna decide
But there's something in my head that screams "DIE"
I don't know what to do but the choice is mine
I'm scared, I don't know how to live my life, yea



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Writer(s): Kaia G Zuniga
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