Depression

I know it's all in my mind
I know it's all in my mind
I know it's all in my mind
I know it's all in my mind
I know it's all in my mind
I know it's all in my mind
I know it's all in my mind
I know it's all in my mind

How long I been coverin' blood in the snow
How long I been holdin' the truth in my throat
How long I been fakin' the face that I show on the bad days

How long I been facin' the pain all alone
Don't tell me you'll stay when I know that you won't
Depression is the only thing not letting go
Depression is the only thing not letting go

If we're all alone when we die
Why let you closer
When it's all just thrown in the fire
I see it all burnin' down
And it's all just on fire, fire

When it's darkest around you
That's when true colors glow
You wonder why I spend all my nights on my own
So don't tell me you care when you show that you don't
I'm tryin' to keep my grip on this sliver of hope
I'm fallin'
If I were to let it go
Let 'em all know
Let 'em all know that I did try but they're better off when I'm gone

'Cause we're all alone when we die, yeah
Nothin' is more sure
And it's all just gone in one night, yeah
Fuck it all, burn it down
And it's all just on fire, fire

If we're all alone when we die
Why let you closer
When it's all just thrown in the fire
I see it all burnin' down
And it's all just on fire, fire

I've been makin' all the waves
That been steerin' you into a wall, Truman
And I won't show you all the weight
I just carry it until I fall, stupid
'Cause I'm so used to stayin' quiet
Seek the place to hide and
Push away the ones that try to find it
Now I'm on an island
Fendin' off the sirens
Shootin' flares as high as I can into the sky, just
Tell me if you notice
Tell me if you see me
Fallin' to my knees
Beggin' for any relief
Even if it's just to feel
Even if it's just to breathe
Even if it's just to see somethin' good in anything
I know I can ask for help
I've been givin' it my best
I'm still thinkin' to myself
Why the fuck you never check
Why the fuck you never ask
Why you call yourself my friend
When I always hear you out
Just to hold it in my chest
Or carry it across my back
Or I tie it 'round my neck
And you wonder where I've been
'Cause you're actin' like I left
Well I've been wishin' I were dead
So I'm takin' off the mask
Now I'm watchin' you pretend
You pretend to understand
Make it 'bout yourself instead
You don't know what's in my head
You don't know what's in my head
I've been wishin' I were

I know it's all in my mind
I know it's all in my mind
Ooh, I know it's all in my mind
I know it's all in my mind
I know it's all in my mind
I know it's all in my mind
I know it's all in my mind