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Do you feel alone
Sitting by your phone
Hoping that I call you?
If I called would you reply
Sitting by my side
Cuz I want to
And what would I say
Would you say hey
If I called you
And would you be mad
Would you call back
If I called you

Hyper fixating on the things I didn't do
Analyzing everything different bout that dude
What he have that I didn't, nothing that's a fact
I'm addicted to the pain, so I really want you back

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There you have it
A codependent narcissist attached to the havoc
He's addicted and he really wants it back,
He'll be unappreciated,
And he knows just what she lacks
But he falls for it
He knows it bad, he's in awe for her,
Twisted his emotions,
Changed his life and packed her bags
Why did he fall for it,
Too attached to his feelings,
Stuck in the sand
Off his feet, he's kneeling
What makes him jolly?
Maybe it's music or getting on top of holly
Or standing on the rooftop screaming
Fuck you loudly
He knows she heard him,
He'll admit it proudly
It eats ya, he really wants to see her,
The shadows coming, I'm weak,
So what if I went and seeked her,
Thinking I could meet her,
Start again but all it does is kill and make me weaker
Imma need a preacher
If I find out another dude beats her
Cuz I still care for her
Something I could never lose
Till it's loose, lost and don't know what to do
Nothing and that's the best option
Keep it low and grind the flow, never know whose watching
You're driven so don't let her stop it
You changed me,
For the good and the bad,
Taught me how to love, and know what it's like to never have it back
So for that thank you,
I'll send you on your way,
On the path of pulling grass, got you thinking about the days
Josh was really there,
Josh really cared,
Maybe I was wrong,
Maybe I was scared
You may be my baby, but in another life it's crazy I swear

Hyper fixating on the things I didn't do
Analyzing everything different bout that dude
What he have that I didn't, nothing that's a fact
I'm addicted to the pain, so I really want you back

I'd treat you even better, with a couple more letters
More kisses in the storm, cuz i know you loved the weather
Reality striking like a bolt from the sky
Zig and zagged now it's coming from all sides
And you bright like the sun, now it's blinding to my eyes
Recovered, I fear nothing, I know I never lied
But she did, she had a little secret
The whole time the little bitch swore she had to keep it
I could see it
Her feelings slowly loosened and her thoughts became a nuisance
Her body became secluded, she said that she could do this
I sat back and thought about the times she was choosing
Anything other than my happiness if it was hard
My heart left dark, with some bruises
She's using words to manipulate her cards
I fell for it
I'm addicted to your touch
And with you I felt enough
I fell for it
Juice was right, by the night
AGATS (All Girls Are The Same)
Would I do it all again
Throw all my progress away just to make amends.
Broken hearted man that you left in the wind
Fuck that, losers lose
And bitch i'm fucking winning i'm winning i'm steady winning
Having motives and intent to be the greatest
Something that you'll never have
It's a fact and now it's blatant
I'm unpredictable, and my actions come adjacent
You tried to ruin a good man, demons ran when I was chasing
That was you
Imma travel across the country
Just for you
I was spending whatever money
Just for you
My back was on the wall
I'm just about to fall, you kicked my legs
That was you
Then you lied to my face and you said it be okay
But then less than a day, you opened your legs
Little slut should be ashamed of the way that your looked at
Known as the hoe that came about when we split last
Put trust in that, She gone be sorry
Realize what she lost when it's gone
Now she sorry
Crying cuz she's been hurt
Bitch I'm not sorry
I'm a pawn in your plan
Plan Z, I'm glad I got the last seat
You doubted my future but don't put nothing past me
You were never good for me, and I feel so dumb
I know it's been a month
And I promise (I promise, I promise) i've never been so done

Do you feel alone
Sitting by your phone
Hoping that I call you?
If I called would you reply
Sitting by my side
Cuz I want to
And what would I say
Would you say hey
If I called you
And would you be mad
And would you call back
If I called you