Habits.

I got some habits hold up wait
Hear me out cos I cant stop them
And many people try judge me
But I don't hold it against them or knock them
See I keep to myself do what I gotta do
It's not new but I know it's a problem
And I know if I don't change my ways
There'll soon come a day I'll hit rock bottom
See I choose to use and abuse
Like substance abuse like me speak for a moment
Yeah I got a bag of sins but I know
By speaking out that I am trying to atone for them
And it's so fed up that I stay locked up
Try as I might I just cant get over them
People try give me substitutes but they taste like ibuprofen

I got some mad habits I know what they are its absurd
I've tried so many times I just cant kick them to the curb
I should go seek out help but I just cant seem to find the nerve
I know I will stop them one day I've said this before but its my word

I got some mad habits I know what they are its absurd
I've tried so many times I just cant kick them to the curb
I should go seek out help but I just cant seem to find the nerve
I know I will stop them one day I've said this before but its my word

See I know that I do say it loud
And it's like I announce but I'm not proud it
But the therapist said the more I speak
And the more people listen I will get over it
So I talk and I listen then I talk a bit more
Till the point that I get bored of it
Then it plays on my mind at night
When I steer at moon light that I'm not solving sh*t
Then the thoughts in my head say do it
And I don't wanna do it cos I wont feel good bout it
This predicament it leaves me sickening
I wish I had medicine to help me deal with it
But I don't and I know that I wont
I gotta use my strength to try and get through it
But it does my head in
Cos every time I try do right it costs me everything

I got some mad habits I know what they are its absurd
I've tried so many times I just cant kick them to the curb
I should go seek out help but I just cant seem to find the nerve
I know I will stop them one day I've said this before but its my word

I got some mad habits I know what they are its absurd
I've tried so many times I just cant kick them to the curb
I should go seek out help but I just cant seem to find the nerve
I know I will stop them one day I've said this before but its my word

For now I just keep my head down
And I wont make a sound till I get over this
People in my life say that its pride
I think that I'm being way too male chauvinist
I know there's a minority
Who think its in my head and that I'm faking it
Like what I gotta do to prove that I gotta screw loose
And I need help to tighten it
And if I relapse to my old ways
Wont say to my face but they think I'm weak and sh*t
Maybe I'm just caught in a void
paranoid and annoyed that I got myself in this
Mark my words when I say one day
That this stain to my name I'll soon get rid of it
Then everybody's gonna be proud
Look at me and announce that they're shocked I came threw it

I got some mad habits I know what they are its absurd
I've tried so many times I just cant kick them to the curb
I should go seek out help but I just cant seem to find the nerve
I know I will stop them one day I've said this before but its my word

I got some mad habits I know what they are its absurd
I've tried so many times I just cant kick them to the curb
I should go seek out help but I just cant seem to find the nerve
I know I will stop them one day I've said this before but its my word

I got some mad habits I know what they are its absurd
I've tried so many times I just cant kick them to the curb
I should go seek out help but I just cant seem to find the nerve
I know I will stop them one day I've said this before but its my word

I got some mad habits I know what they are its absurd
I've tried so many times I just cant kick them to the curb
I should go seek out help but I just cant seem to find the nerve
I know I will stop them one day I've said this before but its my word