Kindled Costumes (feat. Anaís Azul)

I speak this without being bitter
Healing takes time and now I'm seeing clearer
My first memories are
Full of neglect, abuse
Trauma and scars
I'm healing
Generational curses
My mother's mental neurosis
My father's heroin doses
Foster homes and then homeless
Monsters are real
He came every night
Just to fill me with fear
I'm amazed that I'm here
Counting blessings each year
Keep my ancestors near
Spirit guides let them steer
Divine right crystal clear
And if you're not here
It's cause you're toxic as fuck
And enough is enough
I had no choice but to be tough
Grew like a lotus
From muddy waters and darkness
I learned to be soft
Strong roots and scars
And even on those darkest nights
My beauty's seen from the stars

My beauty is seen
There is strength
In the things I've lived
There is strength
In my gentleness
My gentleness

My aura's infinite like nebula
Sent to Atabey
I hail from the Boricua
Y Mira no soy pendeja
What doesn't serve me I leave
Before it sinks me en la Tierra
I used to hate my body
Binging and purging
And purging the pain
Now I moisturize my back fat
And dimples on my ass fat
With love that's divine
I honor my gaze
Respect my God body
Or get the fuck out my way
Some days I struggle
Meditate to stay humble
Pick myself when I stumble
My vision set on tunnel
And listen
If you caused me pain
I forgive you
I love you
But also fuck you
And I pray for you
I thank you
For the lessons I gained
I'm hype
At shows now people know my name
I struggle with my worth
And I'm still learning to love me first
I hope the same for you
And always know your worth

My beauty is seen
There is strength
In the things I've lived
There is strength
In my gentleness
My gentleness

I'm learning
I'm flawed
I'm growing my heart
Perfection is false
My mind is enough
My body's enough

My beauty is seen
There is strength
In my gentleness
There is strength
In the things I've lived
There is strength
In my gentleness
My gentleness