Ashes To Embers

I fell in love with your voice and your eyes
And your smile, that rivaled the skies
And sometimes, I think about that
Sometimes, I miss the past
But I can't go back and I know that now
So I'll just write songs and listen to the sound
Of the noise and the pain in my voice that reminds me of you
Damn, the sky is really blue

I wonder what you'd say if you saw it
Maybe you'd laugh and just not stop it
Life is a puzzle that I'll never be solving
So I am stopping trying
Because I am so tired of loving and hurting and crying and losing
And everything
Is so fucking confusing
I had it, then lost it
I loved it, then left it
I'm hectic and helpless and jealous and reckless
And why
Did you leave me so breathless
This pain is just endless, I'll sit here and end it
I'm writing this message, I'll sing it and send it
And maybe
It'll mean something

But, maybe it won't
Likely, it won't
Because baby you don't
Care for my soul
I know
The way that you are
And caring is hard
And you're lazy and crazy and psycho and bitchy
And obsess on yourself and the fact that you're pretty
And maybe one day when you're lonely and fifty
You'll start to understand, and then you'll just miss me
But, I'll be old history, and all of the memories that you'll be remembering
Will be all of the things that drove me insane
And you'll feel the pain
And take to the grave
My ashes and embers and embers are endlessly flames