Overnight

They say you can't make big changes like overnight
But you ain't seen the power I hold just with a sober mind
I ain't need shit to believe what I can do
I won't deny
I'm in a different state, no quarantine I never took a flight
I been lookin' for answers I knew I wouldn't like
You see the beauty and horror was always deep inside
It's amazin' what you can see
In a different light
That hellish mindset told me every day that I shouldn't try
It's like I went broke, 'cos that bullshit I could no longer buy
Gettin' by just ain't do it for me it will not suffice
To die full of regrets is the ultimate price
The culprit will only divulge upon staring in their eyes
That's the crest of a man, only the best of 'em stand
Whenever taking the blame, with a welcoming hand
I can't help it it's bland, but that's the life of the chivalrous
Acknowledge the bump in the road and make change to your plan
I been seein' poison spread so I'm boilin' antidote
Yes I can be better, that cycle can be broke
I digress this ain't just for me, shit it's to every bloke
For every moment I know we all can say that the hand we broke
Is the source of our guilt
I keep that shit quiet like a family home
Nah I guess that some pain, some people will never know
That's why I gotta keep movin' an provin' I'll never prone
The diamond in the dirt that mined itself was never shown
The bloodied hands of a man who fought the climb alone
The flag he raised was a message that never made it home
See credit was due but no credit comes to those who dread it known
Modesty is a sacred art, lest the smartest phone
See on our sleeves now is a heart that's hardly shown
I need answers I got more questions than The Steve Harvey Show
But I guess life's maze ain't supposed to be completed
If we got our cake aswell, would we even eat it?
If demons do us so much harm, why do some of us feed it?
I guess the suffering is something that is truly needed
To transform you have to destroy what has been mistreated
And mould your mentality higher than anything you've feated
See words have no weight until the proof is bled inside
I thought I understood the true meaning of sacrafice
Until I lost something dear to me that changed my life
Absolutes ain't absolute until they thaw the change in ice
You don't really get it 'till you get it, pain creates the wise
Steppin' in someone else's shoes shouldn't be a prize
Comparison is common nature in our everyday lives
Yeah I've been guilty of it, no doubt you're not surprised
We can be anything we want except for satisfied
If I had one quote about my life, I'd say I'm glad it's mine
Every chance given makes each breath of mine energized
Any stance driven breaks deep depths my mind's weaponized
Seal team 6 with the spit, my saliva's specialised
The difference between us is my potential's recognised
The thought that any hate could stop me, is fantasized
I leave these rappers around me shellshocked and tantalized
But I ain't perfect I'll own it, shit I won't stand disguised
What kind of man would I be to see faults an run an hide
Some just drown instead of swimmin' harder to beat the tide
You might smile on the rollercoaster 'till you begun the ride