Mind of Conscious

And My mind stay running
Gotta find the answers for the next day coming
Take a look inside see my whole world crumbling
So many things weighing heavy on my Conscious

I'm thinking Hard as I lay here on a broken cot
Ponder my future even though it's far off
But these thoughts are the very things
That won't let me retreat into my land of dreams
Make me question everything
Like is money everything?
It's controversial but I'd be lying
If I said it wasn't my goal though
How do I keep it real
When ego at my door though
Grandma said one thing at a time
Take it slow though
And now I wanna be the best hit the ground
Running
Like a contest
Realized that I had digressed
From the original vision
It was the music not the fame or the beautiful women
Thinking if I'd ever change
Nah I think I wouldn't
But that just my pride again my sinner is kicking in
I'm only human
Here I go with my excuses again
I want everything I can't have
Even tho they told me this shit would not last
The greedy shall not past
Hope it won't bite me in the ass

And My mind stay running
Gotta find the answers for the next day coming
Take a look inside see my whole world crumbling
So many things weighing heavy on my Conscious

I'm in a constant battle
Like when I almost moved to Seattle
For some girl
Didn't take her long to skidattle
I'm digging my grave tryna find myself
I got skeletons in my closet
But that's another story in itself
Who am I?
Another person stuck in devil ties
I'll send him a letter hoping we can compromise
No we don't see eye to eye
But please let me catch this rhythm so then I can fly
And maybe I can find some comfort in these holy words
And Only few can concur with my situation
Lately feels like I've been giving more then what I've been taking
And Lately I've been feeling ofly forsaken
Cause I don't know the difference of following God or Satan
The truth is
I'm giving all that I can
Trying to change the cards I'm given
While Tryna stick to a plan
And this is all that I am
And They can hate me all they want
But I still think I'm the man
And Ima take it even though I might not make it
I'm up
And I'm up
Cuz I'm up
Mofo I'm up

And My mind stay running
Gotta find the answers for the next day coming
Take a look inside see my whole world crumbling
So many things weighing heavy on my Conscious

Maybe I'm just to empathetic
Sometimes I regret it
Gave so many chances
You would think I would get it
Here goes your lesson
Your family is always your blessing
Don't ever take em for granted
Don't ever put no one else above em
Who never understands it
I was stupid back then
Working seven days a week while
Living with a crackhead
Caught my first case and til now
Two years later I'm still fighting it
The bitch said I hit her
And that's how I got myself locked in
But I aint never raised my hand to no woman
I couldn't
I wish I could show the judge the messages
But I shouldn't
She has a daughter
I wouldn't wanna see her tooken
The things I've seen throughout my life
It's really got me shooken
Damn
They tried to set me up in LA
They was plotting on my death
I'd wish Id known that shit
The only reason I'm still breathing
And eating is cause my momma called me
Son I got a bad feeling I couldve sworn I had a vision
And I saw you bleeding
Just come home
I've been worried ever since I seen you leaving
Now it's a trip cuz one them snitched
I could've been dead as we speak
Now ain't that a bitch