In Spite of Myself

My whole life a vacay
My whole life a vacay
My whole life a vacay

My whole life a vacay
Way above my paygrade
I don't got the backbone
All I do is placate
Every time I stand up
I get no demand met
They all give me answers
More like 10 commandments

Do I seem blissful to you?
Why even listen if I'm just a mascot?
And my happiness relative too
I'm not a silver bullet, I'm a crapshot
But they're actin like I am invincible
I can't be mad, I've said it my whole life
It's a matter of honor & principle
Ain't a soul know me but my own wife
So I double down and I bare my teeth
Wear my whole heart on a bare sleeve
And I role model and it scares me
You need big daddy, I need therapy
You need big brother, I need less onus
And you more present but you're less focused
You're more petty and you're more vapid
And I think I hate you, what the fuck happened?!

My whole life a vacay
Way above my paygrade
I don't got the backbone
All I do is placate
Every time I stand up
I get no demand met
They all give me answers
More like 10 commandments
My whole life a vacay
Way above my paygrade
I don't got the backbone
All I do is placate
Every time I stand up
I get no demand met
They all give me answers
More like 10 commandments

More like 10 commandments
They all give me answers now
Every time I stand up
I get no demand met now
I'm ahead of the pack
But all that means is I'm alone at the mast
Happy family, and they know it'll last
So all these snakes are tryna leech my ass
Make a petty reason and beseech my ass
Take a pound of flesh for your season pass
I'm a great ride, if I even last
Til' the finish line
I got a big issue and it isn't mine
The taste of apathy
Bitter you'd anticipate
What they don't concede
Sweeter in a million ways
Spitting out my teeth
Rotten from witholding all
The venom that's my controlling
My perspective and emotions lately
My whole life a vacay I cannot afford
Precious moments turn corrosive
I'm falling through the floor
Got locusts on my body, gave the shirt up off my back
Stuck my neck out for a ribbon but they're giving' me the axe

My whole life a vacay
Way above my paygrade
I don't got the backbone
All I do is placate
Every time I stand up
I get no demand met
They all give me answers
More like 10 commandments
My whole life a vacay
Way above my paygrade
I don't got the backbone
All I do is placate
Every time I stand up
I get no demand met
They all give me answers
More like 10 commandments



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Writer(s): Brody Weld
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