Standing in My Own Way (Part Two)

Song for my only niece
Living out somewhere down South East

You might never hear the music
Your father and I are still feuding

Over some bull*, doesn't matter in the scene of things
But pride is a beastly king

And while we're waiting for the other to flinch
Time does ever so inch

Until three years past, unclaimed riches
I follow you via Facebook pictures
First steps and words small enough to hurl
Through the air, pearl in a rough world

And recent events, meant I recently stepped
To the far flung Stockholm, far from London

Might be a while, fore we get to share a smile
in a space, forecasts ain't great and

You deserve more than a bad uncle
Just cuz your dad and I are uncool
To not put aside the drama is so foolish
So much more than that and I knew this, but

What can I say, I let days slip
Stubbornness work, for a stubborn pay slip

A whole lifetime did from my grasp slip
Remorse the potion I doth sip and

Suddenly i get what Bjork had meant
How you can miss who you haven't met

I guess this is not about you to be honest
But how i didn't deliver on what I promised

To myself, I'd do better than my own dad

Might get a little vexed but never mad
But i'm here, and you're there and that's a bit sad

Smile and wave
As I drown under my own wave
I keep standing in my own way

Smile and wave
As I drown under my own wave
I keep standing in my own way

Out of sight
Out of mind

You handle your bags
I'll handle mine

Handle my breakdown
On my own time

When we meet
When we meet up I will act fine

Let another one in is the worst of crimes
Let another one in is the worst of crimes
If I let you in where am I supposed to hide?

Most rapper rapping about demons as a stand-in
For they criticism they've been given

By most I meant every
by every I really mean me

Damascus light rains down on me
From my shadow I can never be free

Less bridges left to burn, more to mend
I'm a long term project, that I cannot pretend

Sometimes can't tell scaffolding from the brick
Believing in oneself is the holiest of tricks

Worst enemies from my former friends
Basket soggy full of broken eggs

Come away bruised, and I come way scarred
Midnight cloud obscuring all the stars

Short waves to my ex friends from afar
Minor chords on this lonely guitar

On Facebook everybody's gang gang
But the profile's muted so you don't feel the pang

Maybe it was cool and the gang until you mauled it
Maybe they was calm an you the one who rocked it

Maybe you unloosened the cords on the corset
Maybe no one wanted to play and so they forfeited

Remember when you laughed til the morning soared
And nowadays memories are sore.

Smile and wave
As I drown under my own wave
I keep standing in my own way

Smile and wave
As I drown under my own wave
I keep standing in my own way