In the Eyes (I Try)

Clifford the big red car
A fire started in the yard
I bet you feel heavy now
With those metal things weighing you down

I don't know much about film
Really shit at staying still
And I'm overly aware
I can feel my heartbeat and your stare

And I can't look you in the eyes
But I'm so far from blind
It's so hard but God I try, try

I'm open to what you are
Let you touch me at the bar
I'm showered with what I'm not
Thinking that I am when you are gone

There's rodents inside my head
Focus on your mouth instead
Pick up what I put down
Never have felt softer on the ground

And I can't look you in the eyes
So I'll let you decide
It's so hard but God I try, try

And yeah, I told myself I'd not
Add to everything you've got
No, I will not get caught
Getting emotional
Avoid the urge to hide
And let them be your guide
Black holes are open wide
Don't let them see inside

And I can't look you in the eyes
I know that I'm not right
It's so hard but God I try, try

And sometimes when I say goodnight
I almost tell a lie
I'm not tough I don't know why I try, try