Cant Sleep

As I lay alone in my bed, I'm thinking bout things I said
I shouldn't have done it cause I know we had bigger plans
They say that everything happen for a reason right?
The only reason that I ever picked up a pen to write was
Because I stared up at the ceiling one too many nights
Yet and still you ain't have to do me like that
Cause once you cross that line, you know ain't no going back

I skipped class just to see us on different paths
I should've put 2 and 2 together but I'm not good at math
That's exactly why I shouldn't been skipping class

I'm down bad, so many thoughts it drive me mad
Can't even fuck with fam cause they consistently bring me down
Don't care what you see, cause I'm me and I see my crown
I'm destined for greatness, man this verse worth a hundred thou
Like Cole said, I bet on myself and then double down
I'm trying to get out of my head, sometimes I just don't know how
We lost a baby, man that shit really broke me down
This bad karma catching up I can see it now
Dear God, I know that I slept around
I'm not perfect, I even let myself down
But yet and still did you have to take my only child?
I been mad at you, I can't even crack a smile
I'm not asking to rebuke, I'm trying to reconcile
I know this ain't yo doing, it's the Devils trials
But some of these is answers that I can't live without

I really seen the reaper, he said that he would spare me
We played limbo for my soul, man that time was scary
He looked me in the eyes and said he understand me
Embraced the darkness now we best friends like Billy and Mandy
I'm kind of heartless cause my heart cold and that's on my granny
I find it crazy how the reaper treat me better than family

I got pressure on me, living be too stressful for me
That's how I know that life is much more than being successful for me
Sometimes I wonder why my niggas ain't really checking for me
Or why these women only want a nigga sexually
I got a wall up high, this shit protecting my peace
After all I been through, what you expecting of me?
I can't be giving out my trust, that was a lesson for me
Man this shit really be wrecking my sleep.

I really seen the reaper, he said that he would spare me
We played limbo for my soul, man that time was scary
He looked me in the eyes and said he understand me
Embraced the darkness now we best friends like Billy and Mandy
I'm kind of heartless cause my heart cold and that's on my granny
I find it crazy how the reaper treat me better than family