Connections

Why you always told me that i'll never be shit,
I put my heart out there, more than I would've admit,
I never should have told you all the shit that I done did,
You used it all against me like I was a fucked up kid,
But now i'm really fucked up from all the shit I learned,
I never thought my own would be the ones to do me dirt,
I always knew respect wasn't just given it was earned,
That's what I fucking get for trusting you and getting burned,
Never wanted to be alone but we just grew apart,
Always wanted to be the one that you loved from the start,
I didn't even think you'd be the one to break my heart,
But now i'm sittin' here lonely wonderin' where we fell apart,
The talks and the cries? Was it the times you told me lies?
The time that I forgave you even though it wasn't right?
I knew I should've left just didn't see it in your eyes,
Every time I called you out all you did was just deny,
Lookin in the mirror thinkin' "Is it really me?"
I never thought you'd do me wrong I never thought you'd leave,
I wanted to believe you even though I saw deceit,
But now i'm just reflectin' and you was a fucked up dream,
Why would you stay? If you didn't wanna be with me,
Cause now when I look at you... all I see is an enemy,
All the shit I did, you made me feel like it was nothin',
I ain't even trippin'... i'll find someone who will love it...
Why you always told me that i'll never be shit,
I put my heart out there, more than I would've admit,
I never should have told you all the shit that I done did,
You used it all against me like I was a fucked up kid,
But now i'm really fucked up from all the shit I learned,
I never thought my own would be the ones to do me dirt,
I always knew respect wasn't just given it was earned,
That's what I fucking get for trusting you and getting burned,
Now imma just move on and act like nothin' really happened,
I ain't about to be bitter... fuck I look like an old fashioned,
Puttin' it down in history and doc this shit up as a lesson,
Don't ever stay with someone who gets mad for asking questions,
Someone gon' care about you... better do it first,
You lookin' in that mirror... better see your worth,
Better see the ones who are loyal to the end...
the ones who will ride for you and die for you,
the ones you call your friends...
That's all that really matters... just focus on your sanity,
Blood makes you related... but loyalty makes you family,
No matter what your race... or your nationality,
As long as we are loyal it doesn't matter how we came to be,
All got the same goals and need a reason just to fight,
People along the way and they not all gon' do you right,
As long as you keep moving out of sight out of mind,
They can front all they want but can't do it from behind,
How you gonna do me wrong when I'm all that you had,
When nobody was there im the one that had your back,
Now you sittin here lonely like I fucked you actin sad,
You did it to yourself im the one that should be mad,
You didn't see anything that was right in front of your eyes,
I know we grew apart but I didn't grow to despise,
I forgive you for what you did and I apologize,
I'm sorry that I cared and you didn't which is fine...