A Boy and the Mirror

Doe
Where do I start, Shit I'm dissatisfied
You're the one that's real but I'm the one you idolize
Taking a clearer look, I don't know what to say
But I am better than whatever you just think you are today

What you saying, I would like to clear
I'm still my boss I'm doing the best I can here
My feelings are intentional, I'm living with no fear
Before you get judgemental I would like to say
This is will all be ephemeral if I get my shit today
I'm gettin it all together, I'm hoping and I pray
I'm trying my very best, to get it all today
And if do I won't be here listening to what you say

Look at me do you even like yourself
I'm just a reflection and I'm better than yourself
Remember when you six when you cry I would cry back
Now you a piece of shit when you cry I would smile back

Don't talk to me about intentions, you're just here
You're nothing but a reflection
You only deal with my physical
And never about my intentions
And I'm here sitting right in front of you
Playing sessions

And here I am
Telling you what you need to hear
That you're a piece of shit
Not a son, nothing but a spit
And I'll repeat, yes you're nothing but a shit
I choose to let you know that before I exit

You know what? Damn you bro
I've been on the road swerving through the high and lows
Any second from now
Mamas gon call the phone

Hey boy
How you doing
You never called to check and check and know how I'm feeling
I just called to check and get the check you'll be sending
I just need the check the to pay some checks I I am owing
And I'm living check to check no one knows how I'm feeling
We all need to check some checks and checks for a living

Where you gettin em
Shut the hell up, don't talk to me about morality
I see the world everyday and something dies inside of me
This never land was never meant for boys
Even men are struggling
And yeah fuck it, I'm just still a boy

With dreams and aspirations
But all hail the country that tied down all my vision
And you looking at me like you don't understand
I understand
Just chill and relax
And here's a lot more coming
So Please pay fucking attention

I've got to survive the system
I've got to see myself through all the dirty dealings
Cos without em, how would I stay alive
How would I be the person you're seeing
Oh wait bro, or you think I'm chilling

I'm making this alphabets play
Then I'm making words out of them
Putting this word on play
Opening a faucet in your head
Making it flow, hit the pause
Play again
And maybe the you'll understand every freaking thing
I've been tryna say

And it's a girl's world
And I'll never gonna have enough
Everyone ain't sexist till it's about opportunities
A boy only gets loved for his abilities
And value of the society bro, we ain't shit

A boy and the Mirror

Okay now I see
That every time you bleed
But I also want you to know that you ain't there for me
Yeah I'm the mirror
But more than a reflection
I'm the past, present and the fucking future
So wait bro cool it down, fuck the fucking pressure
The ends never justify the means and that's my message

So if you ever feel conflicted
Pls Tryna sit down, relax, pick the canvas and paint it yourself
Because no one can really paint you or yourself, it's just you
I mean if you like what you see, then keep doing what do you

Like sometimes I just feel
Maybe some part of my future self will just come back
And like tell me everything that's going to go on, sometimes I just wish
What do you feel
It's never gon happen
We live
We learn and we live again